My darlings,
I have tried to express how I am feeling on numerous occasions yet, my fingers never flow across the keyboard as my thoughts overwhelmingly spill over. A few paragraphs could never sum up how you make your mother feel. So complete and contented. Never in my life have I felt such joy to have two tiny perfections in my life. When the two of you, your daddy and me are nestled within the walls of our home, my heart feels a brand new love. We still cannot believe you belong to us. Every day we spend time with you singing and making faces in hopes you will flash us a smile. And, you do. You both do. You show us your happiness and how much you are currently enjoying new things and being with your parents. The two people that care for you and love you immensely.
You have brought new meaning to my life. You have brought new meaning to the relationship I have with your father. He is an amazing man and I have fallen in love with him all over again as I watch him care for you in wonder and awe. You are blessed to have such a terrific father figure. He will teach you and show you how incredible life is. He appreciates the small things in life and I hope you can learn to appreciate this in him as your mummy has done. You will be a better person for it.
As I hold you both in my arms, I feel the heaviness of your body heaping into me, your skin warm and breath, lovely. For years, I have waited for such moment and daily I mourn you growing out of your ‘babyness ‘ all the while marvelling in what you are becoming ; little personalities of smiles and sounds each your own uniqueness. If you choose to have a family of your own, please enjoy moments rocking your own children to sleep. It is one of life’s best moments. A moment of peaceful love.
Always, will you have the right to make your own decisions. Your daddy and I have vowed to support you, give you space to learn and grow and will always encourage you to explore. Life is such an amazing treasure once you gain the confidence to brave the unknown.
I will never choose myself over you. No sacrifice will be too big. I want to show you so many things. Even now, in low whispers before bed, I tell you the experiences to be had. You and me. Seaside adventures, growing our own vegetables and flowers, messy painting, our first roller coaster ride, your first puppy, building tents in our living room until you are old enough to camp outside amongst friends in the backyard, helping you to read your first book, teaching you to cook, helping you to realise the importance of respecting others and their opinions. The list is endless. Any experience you desire, we want to give that to you. And, will try as parents to ensure you have the best life possible.
You are without a doubt the best gift we have ever received. Two weeks ago, your father said,
‘I knew our lives would change dramatically and I could not think of a better way for it to do so..’
He could not have summed it up any better.
Thank you for changing our lives babies. You are loved.
Love,
Mummy
